Still no follicles over 10 mm at my U/S today. The nurse called me about noon and said they are letting me decide what to do next. I thought to myself, "WHAT!?!" She said I could take 100 IU for three days and monitor on Weds or end my cycle and take provera to induce a new cycle. My estradiol hadn't risen since the last check, but she said it was up to me. Boy did I hate that. Isn't that why I'm paying the doc the big bucks - so he can decide what's best for me?
I'm going to try to get something out of this cycle and continue the meds. There must be a small chance of hope that I could grow a follicle, otherwise they wouldn't let me try, right? That's my theory anyway. The nurse said if I don't have a measurable follicle by Weds, we will quit for this month. That will be a bummer, but it's nothing I haven't been through before.
Now, of course, I am questioning my decision to not do acupuncture this time. I know I said we cannot afford it, and that's true. However, the one month I did it I ovulated and got pregnant. Maybe it was just a coincidence, but what if that's what made it happen? I fear I'm just waisting my time and money by not doing it.
I would like to say that when it's meant to be I'll get pregnant, but that's such an ignorant statement to me. If I had that mentality, I wouldn't have gone through treatments before, and I wouldn't have Hadley. Besides, I just cannot believe that there is some grand scheme where we have to go though hell to be parents and other idiots can reproduce on a whim. If that's true, I'd like to meet the genius who decided that. I would certainly give him a piece of my mind.
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history
- 11/28/08 - Baby is Due!
- 2/08 - Cycle #1 - Metformin, Follistim, Ovidrel, progesterone suppositories - IUI #1 - BFP
- 11/25/06 - Daughter Hadley is born
- 3/06 - Cycle #9 - Acupuncture, Metformin, Follistim, Novarel, progesterone suppositories - IUI #1 - BFP
- 2/06 - Cycle #8 - Metformin, Lupron, Gonal-f, Novarel - cancelled - over response - OHSS (bedrest 1 week)
- 12/05 - Cycle #7 - Metformin, Gonal-f - cancelled - over response
- 10/05 - Cycle #6 - Metformin, Gonal-f - cancelled - no response
- 9/05 - Cycle #5 - Metformin, Clomid, Gonal-f - cancelled - no response
- 7/05 - Cycle #4 - Metformin, Clomid - cancelled - no response
- 7/05 - Laparoscopy - interligamentous uterine fibroid - not removed
- 6/05 - MRI Pelvis - mass still unknown
- 6/05 - CT Pelvis - mass still unknown
- 6/05 - SHG - unknown mass on left ovary
- 6/05 - HSG - normal
- 1/05 - Cycle #3 - Letrozole - cancelled - no reponse
- 12/04 - Cycle #2 - Clomid - cancelled - no reponse
- 11/04 - Cycle #1 - Clomid - cancelled - no response
2 comments:
I hear ya, Katie! You've got to do everything that you feel is in your power to make it happen. If there is a genius behind all this, then I believe you've got to meet them halfway. Even idiots have to have sex. And virgins have to say yes ;) We all have different challenges. I think you're handling yours really well. Stay strong!
Hi Katie,
You sound so stressed out, I'm sorry that you are having such a difficult time. I have also wondered why more people like you can't get pregnant easier--people who are wonderful parents that kids would be blessed to have as a mom...and then there are those who can pop them out on a whim and don't even bother to take care of them and they get put in foster care. There are no easy answers to those kind of questions...like why do good people get incurable cancers and children born with disabilities.... My personal belief is that we endure things for a reason...if I didn't believe that, I think I would go crazy, because there is so much of life that is unfair. But there are alot of wonderful things too...you are blessed with Hadley and I have faith that you will be blessed with another baby. Who knows...what you are going through may be helping someone else more than you know. Its small consolation for the way you are feeling now...but it's something.
Anyway, enough of me philosophizing...I hope we can get together soon. I am sure that Hadley is getting really big and I would like to hang out with you guys again soon. Email me about this weekend...
Take care!
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