Here we are at five weeks. I'm still feeling pregnant...bigger breasts, tired, etc. And now I'm peeing more often too. Good thing I work where there are LOTS of bathrooms!
I'm still very nervous. That ultrasound cannot come fast enough. I know I haven't lost a pregnancy before, but I know people who have, and it scares me. To see a heartbeat and know that the baby is growing safely would be a huge thing.
Oh, and the thought of twins is freaking me out now, not just the thought of one more child. If a newborn and a toddler is scary, TWO newborns and a toddler is terrifying! I guess I would be done then, right? No need to go through this again.
I'm trying to be patient and take the pregnancy one day at a time, but my (somewhat) irrational fears are making that difficult. They are also keeping me from sleeping well. Hopefully after the ultrasound I can sleep normally...well as normally as you can when you have to get up in the night to pee.
I just realized today that my ultrasound is the day before my brother's girlfriend's baby shower. I really hope we don't get bad news at that appointment - it would be very hard for me to have fun at someone else's shower the next day. I plan to stay very, very excited either way, because she will have my first niece (and Hadley's first cousin) soon. I just wish they lived closer to us. I guess we'll just have to make lots of road trips to get the kids together.
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
Saturday, March 22, 2008
4 Weeks 1 Day
Well, I'm officially feeling the signs of early pregnancy.
I am extra tired and I feel like I cannot sleep enough. Then I wake up at weird times and have trouble falling back asleep.
I keep dropping things, and I did that all the time with Hadley. Yesterday I dropped my lunch bag on the way out to my car in the morning, a bag containing specimens at work, and a fork on the way to the table at dinner. Then today I dropped keys in the snow. Nothing really important, but I just feel like a klutz.
I swear my breasts are bigger already. No complaints there. :)
Smells have started to bother me - mostly Ben's coffee in the morning. Yuck.
I feel kind of "sick" in general. My stomach has felt uneasy the last couple of days, and eating always seems to help. Just what I need is to be stuffing my face all day!
I am starting to worry about how to handle a 2 year old and a newborn. Logistical things like where they will both sleep and ride in the car and fit in a stroller (we'll need a new one since ours seats one). Then there are the thoughts on how we will afford more diapers and more than double the daycare expense.
I knew all these things (and others) would have to be resolved, but being pregnant starts my mind racing about how to implement all the changes. I know that having another child is going to be wonderful, even if we have to change our routines and give up some things to which we are accustomed. I cannot wait to add another little person to our family!
P.S. I told the rest of my family - meaning moms, dads, and siblings. I am glad I did.
I am extra tired and I feel like I cannot sleep enough. Then I wake up at weird times and have trouble falling back asleep.
I keep dropping things, and I did that all the time with Hadley. Yesterday I dropped my lunch bag on the way out to my car in the morning, a bag containing specimens at work, and a fork on the way to the table at dinner. Then today I dropped keys in the snow. Nothing really important, but I just feel like a klutz.
I swear my breasts are bigger already. No complaints there. :)
Smells have started to bother me - mostly Ben's coffee in the morning. Yuck.
I feel kind of "sick" in general. My stomach has felt uneasy the last couple of days, and eating always seems to help. Just what I need is to be stuffing my face all day!
I am starting to worry about how to handle a 2 year old and a newborn. Logistical things like where they will both sleep and ride in the car and fit in a stroller (we'll need a new one since ours seats one). Then there are the thoughts on how we will afford more diapers and more than double the daycare expense.
I knew all these things (and others) would have to be resolved, but being pregnant starts my mind racing about how to implement all the changes. I know that having another child is going to be wonderful, even if we have to change our routines and give up some things to which we are accustomed. I cannot wait to add another little person to our family!
P.S. I told the rest of my family - meaning moms, dads, and siblings. I am glad I did.
Thursday, March 20, 2008
It Went Up!
My result today was 91.4. So it tripled - a good sign of a healthy pregnancy. The next step is an ultrasound to confirm that the pregnancy is progressing and in the right spot (not in the tubes or anything). We will also confirm any multiples at that time. I have that scheduled for April 11th. I'll be 7 weeks by then.
I don't really feel much of anything yet - just tired. But that's not a big deal - I'm only 4 weeks.
I am kind of nervous about telling some of my family about the pregnancy. I worry that something bad might happen, and then I would have to tell all of them about that, too. With Hadley I just told everyone, but this time I'm being kind of a worry-wart. I'm not sure what that is about. Maybe I'll feel more excited and positive once I tell everyone. We'll see.
I don't really feel much of anything yet - just tired. But that's not a big deal - I'm only 4 weeks.
I am kind of nervous about telling some of my family about the pregnancy. I worry that something bad might happen, and then I would have to tell all of them about that, too. With Hadley I just told everyone, but this time I'm being kind of a worry-wart. I'm not sure what that is about. Maybe I'll feel more excited and positive once I tell everyone. We'll see.
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
BFP!
It was positive! 30.2 MIU/ML to be exact. Normal range is 9 - 130. Under 2 would be negative. I am so thrilled! And to think, we almost gave up on this cycle!
My result was a little on the low side, though, so I am sure they will repeat in a couple of days. With Hadley, I was at 51, and they retested four days later and it was 380. The level should double every about every two days.
It is still very, very early, but to me, a positive is a positive. That's the attitude I had with Hadley, and that's how I feel today. I'm aware of the realities, but focusing on only good thoughts!
The doctor's office will call me this afternoon to tell me what to do next. I'll post again after that.
**************UPDATE**************
I was right, they want me to repeat the test on Thursday. The nurse didn't say anything about it being low, though, she just congratulated me. That was nice because with Hadley, the nurse who called was very negative when she told me. Like I wasn't supposed to be excited about a positive test...whatever!
No offense to anyone who reads the news here first. I am not calling anyone until the second test result shows a healthy pregnancy. I figure anyone devoted to reading this should know today, but I'm really not ready to spread the word yet.
My result was a little on the low side, though, so I am sure they will repeat in a couple of days. With Hadley, I was at 51, and they retested four days later and it was 380. The level should double every about every two days.
It is still very, very early, but to me, a positive is a positive. That's the attitude I had with Hadley, and that's how I feel today. I'm aware of the realities, but focusing on only good thoughts!
The doctor's office will call me this afternoon to tell me what to do next. I'll post again after that.
**************UPDATE**************
I was right, they want me to repeat the test on Thursday. The nurse didn't say anything about it being low, though, she just congratulated me. That was nice because with Hadley, the nurse who called was very negative when she told me. Like I wasn't supposed to be excited about a positive test...whatever!
No offense to anyone who reads the news here first. I am not calling anyone until the second test result shows a healthy pregnancy. I figure anyone devoted to reading this should know today, but I'm really not ready to spread the word yet.
Thursday, March 13, 2008
Five Days To Go!
I'm still waiting - only four more long days and one short morning until I find out if I'm pregnant. I don't really feel any different, just bloated. I'm not worried, though, because I didn't feel anything special with Hadley at this point either. My instincts tell me that the test will be positive, but I have nothing to base that on except my own intuition. I'm getting very excited.
I'm trying to decide how to tell people the results. I've thought about posting them here and not calling anyone - that could be fun - see which of my friends and family actually read this thing. I have trouble keeping my mouth shut with that big of news, but maybe I could try.
Okay, this is crazy. As I'm typing this, I feel like I'm leaking a tiny bit of milk. I haven't felt that in about two months. It kind of gives me hope! I know a woman who got pregnant not too long after she quit nursing, and one of her first symptoms was leaking milk! Let's just hope it means something and isn't just a coincidence.
I'm trying to decide how to tell people the results. I've thought about posting them here and not calling anyone - that could be fun - see which of my friends and family actually read this thing. I have trouble keeping my mouth shut with that big of news, but maybe I could try.
Okay, this is crazy. As I'm typing this, I feel like I'm leaking a tiny bit of milk. I haven't felt that in about two months. It kind of gives me hope! I know a woman who got pregnant not too long after she quit nursing, and one of her first symptoms was leaking milk! Let's just hope it means something and isn't just a coincidence.
Thursday, March 6, 2008
Twelve Days To Go!
Our 2nd IUI went well. Not much to report. I felt some cramping today at work when I tried to do too much running around. After that I tried to move slow and take it easy - that helped. Other than that all I feel is bloated.
Tomorrow I start twice a day progesterone suppositories (vaginal). They suck - I took them with Hadley and they kept me on them until I was 11 weeks pregnant. They are mostly just precautionary so they kind of annoy me, but I'll live.
My doctor ordered a blood test for the 18th to see if I'm pregnant. Twelve days and I'll know if the IUIs worked - I cannot wait! I hope it goes by fast.
Tomorrow I start twice a day progesterone suppositories (vaginal). They suck - I took them with Hadley and they kept me on them until I was 11 weeks pregnant. They are mostly just precautionary so they kind of annoy me, but I'll live.
My doctor ordered a blood test for the 18th to see if I'm pregnant. Twelve days and I'll know if the IUIs worked - I cannot wait! I hope it goes by fast.
Wednesday, March 5, 2008
Day 28
The first IUI was pretty uneventful. I feel pretty bloated and exhausted today (from the injection last night). After giving myself a shot every night for the last 27 days, it felt good to have tonight off. It was an awfully long month, but I made it through. One more day to go.
Tuesday, March 4, 2008
Day 27
My follicles this morning were 13.7 mm on the right side and 17.1 mm on the left. The third follicle shrunk. (Whew!) That should mean no chance of triplets, but still a chance of twins. My estradiol was 163 PG/ML, and my lining was 9.7 mm and trilaminar.
I figured they would give me one more day and recheck tomorrow. I guess 18 mm isn't set in stone, because the nurse told me to inject the Ovidrel tonight (this causes ovulation around 36 to 40 hours later). I will go to Mpls tomorrow and Thursday for IUIs. Finally!
I am amazed at how long this cycle took. It felt like it would never end. I guess I don't know how long they will let you go before giving up - they told me we would quit if I hadn't responded by day 21, so probably right around then. I definitely trust that my doc knows what he's doing. (Although he did give me the choice of giving up... hmm...)
If I get pregnant this cycle, my due date will be two days after Hadley's 2nd birthday - and Thanksgiving Day. However, she was due Jan 6th and arrived Nov 25th, so I take a due date with a grain of salt because I know anything can happen. For now, I'm going to focus on getting pregnant. Wish me luck.
I figured they would give me one more day and recheck tomorrow. I guess 18 mm isn't set in stone, because the nurse told me to inject the Ovidrel tonight (this causes ovulation around 36 to 40 hours later). I will go to Mpls tomorrow and Thursday for IUIs. Finally!
I am amazed at how long this cycle took. It felt like it would never end. I guess I don't know how long they will let you go before giving up - they told me we would quit if I hadn't responded by day 21, so probably right around then. I definitely trust that my doc knows what he's doing. (Although he did give me the choice of giving up... hmm...)
If I get pregnant this cycle, my due date will be two days after Hadley's 2nd birthday - and Thanksgiving Day. However, she was due Jan 6th and arrived Nov 25th, so I take a due date with a grain of salt because I know anything can happen. For now, I'm going to focus on getting pregnant. Wish me luck.
Monday, March 3, 2008
Day 26
Two of the follicles grew, and one shrank. On the right I had a 13.4 mm and a 10.3 mm, and on the left was a 14.6 mm. My lining was 8.3 mm and trilaminar. My estradiol was 151 PG/ML. They told me to take 150 IU tonight and come back in tomorrow. That means I'm close and things look great!
I'm glad I didn't decide to quit back on day 18! I almost did quit - part of me wanted to take a break from meds and start from scratch next month. Now I might do an IUI this week - I guess I made the right decision!
The past 4 or 5 days I have been feeling better - not so bloated. Still tired, but not as many mood swings. Only one new bruise for a total of 7. More tomorrow.
I'm glad I didn't decide to quit back on day 18! I almost did quit - part of me wanted to take a break from meds and start from scratch next month. Now I might do an IUI this week - I guess I made the right decision!
The past 4 or 5 days I have been feeling better - not so bloated. Still tired, but not as many mood swings. Only one new bruise for a total of 7. More tomorrow.
Saturday, March 1, 2008
Day 24
Things are looking up! Today I had 3 measurable follicles - 11.5 mm, 11 mm, and 12 mm. Woohoo! I'm not sure what my estradiol was today, but they told me two days at 100 IU and go back in on Monday for another check.
Hopefully one follicle will dominate the others so I don't have to worry about triplets. Twins would be a lot of work, but triplets or more scare the @!*# out of me. In mother nature, usually one follicle grows big and signals the others to back off.
We're looking for one (or more) follicle(s) to be 18 mm+ and for my estradiol to be 150 - 200 per follicle. The size of the follicle combined with the proper estradiol level signals a mature and healthy egg.
Today was U/S and lab #8 for this month. I don't even want to know how much all of that costs. Add to that three trips to Mpls and back (gas), and 1500 IU of medication so far. Don't get me wrong, a child is completely worth it, but this sucks financially.
Hopefully one follicle will dominate the others so I don't have to worry about triplets. Twins would be a lot of work, but triplets or more scare the @!*# out of me. In mother nature, usually one follicle grows big and signals the others to back off.
We're looking for one (or more) follicle(s) to be 18 mm+ and for my estradiol to be 150 - 200 per follicle. The size of the follicle combined with the proper estradiol level signals a mature and healthy egg.
Today was U/S and lab #8 for this month. I don't even want to know how much all of that costs. Add to that three trips to Mpls and back (gas), and 1500 IU of medication so far. Don't get me wrong, a child is completely worth it, but this sucks financially.
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