35 Weeks 5 Days

I am truly feeling miserable now. I'm up half the night, exhausted during the day, and having trouble getting around and doing everyday tasks. I cannot wait for this pregnancy to be over.

Baby was sleeping through most of the non-stress test on Tuesday. The CMA had to wake him with this buzzer thing. After that, he moved and his heart rate went up, so he passed his test. I'm not sure what they do if he fails, but I really didn't want to find out by having it happen.

Officially last Thursday my cervix was 50 % effaced, or halfway thinned out. The nurse yesterday commented on that but my doc just said it had "softened" on Thurs so I didn't really know what that meant. It's funny, all this cervix stuff and labor in general is still so foreign to me even though I already have a child. I never got this far or went through any of it last time. I have been reading like crazy and trying to refresh myself about it. We took the classes last time but I forgot most of what we learned because we never used it.

I have a feeling that I will go into labor before my c-section date, but I really have no experience on which to base that idea. Something just feels different to me, but maybe that is just because I am near the end? I guess we'll know soon since my c-section is only 2 weeks and 2 days away!

We're thinking about Lucian for a name at the moment, but Ben really STILL has not spent any time talking with me about it. His grandfather died this past week, so he has had other things on his mind. However, this baby will be here soon whether he's busy or not, so I hope he can find time this weekend to help me. If not, I think I will just pick whatever I like and he will just have to live with it!